Why do I do it to myself? My scale addiction

We had a family dinner last night, and I knew before I got there that I would probably eat too much, and that the scales would not be my friend today.

I didn't overeat as much as I thought I would, but of course the scales showed a 900gm gain from yesterday. Now I know that I didn't gain nearly a kilo of fat overnight - it will be related to the salt & sugar overload yesterday.

Now, I'm not berating myself for enjoying a family dinner - I will never be one to miss out on a family feast - I am berating myself for getting on the scales this morning.

There was absolutely no need to. It's not weigh in day, I knew it would be bad and not reflective of my actual weight, but still I did it. I completely forgot the pledge I had made to myself about not stepping on the scales for a few days.

I don't need to weigh everyday, but it's like I have an addiction! And I know I am not the only one by far (come on, fess up!).

So I have put a reminder in my phone to not weigh for the next 2 days. It'll pop up on my phone before I get out of bed. It's going to take an insane amount of willpower, but I can't ask hubby to hide the scales, because then I might never get them back. Plus, I need to get in the habit of not weighing everyday, without intervention.

The scales are in a cupboard, so they're not even staring me in the face - it's just become automatic to get them out and hop on right before my shower.

So I pledge this: No weighing until Saturday. 

It's not perfect, but it's a start.

Not quite so angry today - and a progress pic

Thanks for letting me vent yesterday - I needed it!

I had a good think, and although I was annoyed at 'only' 3.4kg in 6 weeks, that is more than half a kilo per week!

And if I do some more maths, I have been actively trying to lose weight for 39 weeks, and have lost 22.4kg, so that's still just over 500gms per week - and that's a damn good rate!

So I need to take a step back, and look at the bigger picture. 500gms a week is not bad, in fact it's pretty damn awesome. There are 25 Mondays until Christmas, which is 25 weigh ins. So if I kept my average up, that'd be another 12.5kg by Christmas time. I've set a goal of being 80kg by Christmas, so that's only 10.6kg. Realistically, that is doable.

So no more moping!! Be happy with 500gms or more each week, and do a happy dance when I get the big losses. As long as the weight is coming off, I'll be happy.

On that note, I'm still DYING to get in to the 80's - come on body, let's do this!!!

Oooh, and I got my halfway pics for my latest 12 week challenge, and I think the 3.4kg is actually quite noticeable! What do you guys think?

I'm angry!

Goal Weight: 73kg

Current Weight: 90.3

Started my journey 01/09/14 - 22.4kg lost

I'm angry at myself, and I'm not even sure it's justified. Current weight is 90.6 - 700gms since last WI, but only 300 since my pledge to get into the 80s (which I made to myself on Tuesday). I'm really angry. I eat below my kj allowance every day, last week I did 4 walks, a strength session, and a pilates class. I had 1 bad food day (Friday), but was still under my allowance. And I lose a measley 300gms?!?!? I don't know if I'm in a plateau, if it's because I have a cold, am I not eating enough, or should I be having salad for breakfast, lunch and dinner?

I know 700gms is good, but 400gms of that was lost overnight on Monday, so would have been TTOM related, and the other 300gms I had to work my butt off for. I'm angry because I don't know why it's not coming off in bigger amounts - I've got too far to go to only lose 300gms a week!! 

And that means I've only lost 3.4kg in 6 weeks - 1/2 of my 12 week challenge - not good enough :(

On the postivie side though, I did my 1/2 way check in for my challenge - my measurements have slightly improved.

In 6 weeks I've lost

2cm from upper arm

1cm from bust

4cm from waist

3cm from tummy

2cm from hips

2cm from thigh

1cm from calf

So it's not all doom and gloom, but I'm still angry. Going to try very hard not to eat my anger today.

Quick Recap:

My JFJ No Go List:

Chippies

Chocolate

Ice Cream

Lollies

McDonald's

KFC

Burger King

Takeaway Fish & Chips

Takeaway Pizza

I am going to do daily food diaries on here to keep me accountable for JFJ,so here's how day 28 went (2 days to go):

Breakfast: 1 piece toast with vegemite

Morning Tea:

Lunch: Ham, cheese & tomato sandwich

Afternoon Tea: Pita crisps & dip

Dinner: Chicken breast wrapped in bacon, broccoli & mashed potatoes

Here's a quick update of my mini goals - ones completed, and my plan to get to goal :)

5kg (108) - September 2014

5% (107.3) - September 2014

10kg (103) - 11/2/15

10% (101.7) - 2/3/15

Under 100 - 16/3/15

15kg (98) - 13/4/15

15% (96) - 27/4/15

12 week challenge #1 (94.2) - 94.0

20kg (93) - 1/6/15

GWEJune (91) - 90.6!

20% (90.4)

Under 90

GWEJuly (88.5)

25kg (88)

12 week challenge #2 (86)

25% (84.7)

30kg (83)

Under 80

30% (79.1)

35kg (78)

35% (73.4)

40kg/Goal (73)

Have a great week

xx

Next Mini Goal: 20%  0.2kg to go

Breaking it down (and no longer MIA)

Goal Weight: 73kg

Current Weight: 91.3

Started my journey 01/09/14 - 21.7kg lost

Sorry I have been a bit MIA - work has been mental, and that is where I usually write my blogs! Junk Free June is going well - just under 1 week to go! I'm feeling really good as a result, and definitely less bloated.

No loss on the scales this week, but no gain either. Last week was TTOM and I was up 1.2kg during the week, so was actually quite happy to not have a gain on Monday morning! I have since lost a bit, but will keep that for my official weigh in on Monday - I'm hoping to make it a good one! I've lost 2.6kg over the last 4 weigh ins, which is a good average. I need to step it up a bit if I'm going to get to my 12 week challenge goal though. 7 weigh ins to go, 5.3kg to challenge goal, so around 750gms per week. If I chuck a few big ones in there over the next month it'll help out towards the end.

On the 2nd to last week of the challenge we are going to Canterbury for the weekend, and that'll be a big test for me. I always drink & eat heaps when we are with the in-laws, but I honestly think my willpower is at an all time high at the moment, so I may just be ok. I will still have a wine or 2 with my MIL, but just need to ignore the chippies that go with it, and track, track, track (oh, and try to keep up my exercise while away!

Quick Recap:

My JFJ No Go List:

Chippies

Chocolate

Ice Cream

Lollies

McDonald's

KFC

Burger King

Takeaway Fish & Chips

Takeaway Pizza

I am going to do daily food diaries on here to keep me accountable for JFJ,so here's how day 23 went:

Breakfast: Porridge with milk on top

Morning Tea: Nuts

Lunch: Egg Sandwich & slice of Sultana loaf

Afternoon Tea: Fruit Stick

Dinner: Chicken breast, tomato & oven fries

Here's a quick update of my mini goals - ones completed, and my plan to get to goal :)

5kg (108) - September 2014

5% (107.3) - September 2014

10kg (103) - 11/2/15

10% (101.7) - 2/3/15

Under 100 - 16/3/15

15kg (98) - 13/4/15

15% (96) - 27/4/15

12 week challenge #1 (94.2) - 94.0

20kg (93) - 1/6/15

GWEJune (91)

20% (90.4)

Under 90

25kg (88)

12 week challenge #2 (86)

25% (84.7)

30kg (83)

Under 80

30% (79.1)

35kg (78)

35% (73.4)

40kg/Goal (73)

Have a great week

xx

Next Mini Goal: Goal Weight End of June 0.3kg to go

Did I mention TTOM sucks?

Goal Weight: 73kg

Current Weight: 91.3

Started my journey 01/09/14 - 21.7kg lost

No big blog today, I'm in the midst of TTOM and it sucks.

My JFJ No Go List:

Chippies

Chocolate

Ice Cream

Lollies

McDonald's

KFC

Burger King

Takeaway Fish & Chips

Takeaway Pizza

I am going to do daily food diaries on here to keep me accountable for JFJ,so here's how day 16 went:

Breakfast: Porridge with milk on top

Morning Tea: Nuts

Lunch: Club sandwich, rice cakes and apple juice

Afternoon Tea: Muesli Bar & fruit nuggets

Dinner: Scrambled eggs on toast

Here's a quick update of my mini goals - ones completed, and my plan to get to goal :)

5kg (108) - September 2014

5% (107.3) - September 2014

10kg (103) - 11/2/15

10% (101.7) - 2/3/15

Under 100 - 16/3/15

15kg (98) - 13/4/15

15% (96) - 27/4/15

12 week challenge #1 (94.2) - 94.0

20kg (93) - 1/6/15

GWEJune (91)

20% (90.4)

Under 90

25kg (88)

12 week challenge #2 (86)

25% (84.7)

30kg (83)

Under 80

30% (79.1)

35kg (78)

35% (73.4)

40kg/Goal (73)

Have a great week

xx

Next Mini Goal: Goal Weight End of June 0.3kg to go

TTOM Weight Gain Sucks!

Goal Weight: 73kg

Current Weight: 91.3

Started my journey 01/09/14 - 21.7kg lost

Quick note to say - UGH I HATE PERIOD WEIGHT GAIN! 1kg in 2 days! I know it's temporary, but it still sucks.

My JFJ No Go List:

Chippies

Chocolate

Ice Cream

Lollies

McDonald's

KFC

Burger King

Takeaway Fish & Chips

Takeaway Pizza

I am going to do daily food diaries on here to keep me accountable for JFJ,so here's how day 15 went:

Breakfast: Porridge with milk on top

Morning Tea:

Lunch: Leftover satay chicken, veg & rice

Afternoon Tea: Nuts & fruit nuggets

Dinner: Chicken cordon bleu, mashed spuds, broccoli & an eclair for dessert

Here's a quick update of my mini goals - ones completed, and my plan to get to goal :)

5kg (108) - September 2014

5% (107.3) - September 2014

10kg (103) - 11/2/15

10% (101.7) - 2/3/15

Under 100 - 16/3/15

15kg (98) - 13/4/15

15% (96) - 27/4/15

12 week challenge #1 (94.2) - 94.0

20kg (93) - 1/6/15

GWEJune (91)

20% (90.4)

Under 90

25kg (88)

12 week challenge #2 (86)

25% (84.7)

30kg (83)

Under 80

30% (79.1)

35kg (78)

35% (73.4)

40kg/Goal (73)

Have a great week

xx

Next Mini Goal: Goal Weight End of June 0.3kg to go

14 Losses in A Row!

Goal Weight: 73kg

Current Weight: 91.3

Started my journey 01/09/14 - 21.7kg lost

Pretty good week with a 900gm loss :) That brings me to 14 losses in a row! This girl is on fire! AF is due in the next couple of days, and I'm already feeling bloated. Hopefully the damage is minimal and shortlived so that I can have another good loss on Monday. I'm starting to get so close to the 80's - I'd love to be there by my last WI for June (2 weeks to go). Even if it's 89.9!

My exercise wasn't awesome last week - only 3 walks and no strength sessions. Need to do at least 4 walks this week, plus my 2 strength sessions, and I'm doing a skype pilates class on Thursday night (my first ever skype class - quite excited!)

Also, I'm at the halfway mark for JFJ! This week will be the hardest, with AF on it's way. I've come this far, I'm sure I can make it through. I'm armed with peppermint tea, nuts and porridge. Send me your "you can do it" vibes please!!

Time for a recap:

My JFJ No Go List:

Chippies

Chocolate

Ice Cream

Lollies

McDonald's

KFC

Burger King

Takeaway Fish & Chips

Takeaway Pizza

I am going to do daily food diaries on here to keep me accountable for JFJ,so here's how day 14 went:

Breakfast: Peanut Butter on Toast

Morning Tea: 

Lunch: 4 Cheerios, 1 piece of bread with marg

Afternoon Tea: Nuts 

Dinner: Satay Chicken with veg on Rice

Here's a quick update of my mini goals - ones completed, and my plan to get to goal :)

5kg (108) - September 2014

5% (107.3) - September 2014

10kg (103) - 11/2/15

10% (101.7) - 2/3/15

Under 100 - 16/3/15

15kg (98) - 13/4/15

15% (96) - 27/4/15

12 week challenge #1 (94.2) - 94.0

20kg (93) - 1/6/15

GWEJune (91)

20% (90.4)

Under 90

25kg (88)

12 week challenge #2 (86)

25% (84.7)

30kg (83)

Under 80

30% (79.1)

35kg (78)

35% (73.4)

40kg/Goal (73)

Have a great week

xx

Next Mini Goal: Goal Weight End of June 0.3kg to go

JFJ Day 11 & Mini goals!

Goal Weight: 80kg?

Current Weight: 92.2

Started my journey 01/09/14 - 20.8kg lost

No long post today, just a recap of JFJ - day 11 (Don't even ask about day 10!)

My JFJ No Go List:

Chippies

Chocolate

Ice Cream

Lollies

McDonald's

KFC

Burger King

Takeaway Fish & Chips

Takeaway Pizza

I am going to do daily food diaries on here to keep me accountable for JFJ,so here's how day 11 went:

Breakfast: Porridge, bit on milk on top

Morning Tea: Waffle with Fruit

Lunch: Pita Pit & Tank Juice

Afternoon Tea: Nuts & Fruit Stick

Dinner: I don't really know. We had a networking event and I just munched on nibbles (too many though)

Last night was a bit of a fail, but nevermind!

Here's a quick update of my mini goals - ones completed, and my plan to get to goal :)

5kg (108) - September 2014

5% (107.3) - September 2014

10kg (103) - 11/2/15

10% (101.7) - 2/3/15

Under 100 - 16/3/15

15kg (98) - 13/4/15

15% (96) - 27/4/15

12 week challenge #1 (94.2) - 94.0

20kg (93) - 1/6/15

GWEJune (91)

20% (90.4)

Under 90

25kg (88)

12 week challenge #2 (86)

25% (84.7)

30kg (83)

Under 80

30% (79.1)

35kg (78)

35% (73.4)

40kg/Goal (73)

Have a great week

xx

Next Mini Goal: Goal Weight End of June 1.2kg to go

Junk Free June Day 9

Goal Weight: 80kg?

Current Weight: 92.2

Started my journey 01/09/14- 20.8kg lost

I've decided to stop downplaying my weight loss, and I'm changing my stats to when I officially started losing weight :)

No long post today, just a recap of JFJ - day 9

My JFJ No Go List:

Chippies

Chocolate

Ice Cream

Lollies

McDonald's

KFC

Burger King

Takeaway Fish & Chips

Takeaway Pizza

I am going to do daily food diaries on here to keep me accountable for JFJ,so here's how day 9 went:

Breakfast: Eggs, Toast, Hashbrown

Morning Tea: Fruit Stick

Lunch: Lamb Sandwich, Brownie

Afternoon Tea: 

Dinner: Chicken Cordon Bleu, mashed potato, carrots, broccoli, cauliflower

A little slip up yesterday - but not too bad, and still under my calories. To be fair, cake was never on my no-go list ;)

Have a great week

xx

Next Mini Goal: Goal Weight End of June/15kg lost this year - 1.2kg to go

JFJ and I think I finally have a goal!

Goal Weight: 80kg?

Current Weight: 92.2

Started my journey 6/01/15 - 13.8kg lost in 2015

Week 2 of JFJ is underway, and going well so far. Had a wee slip up yesterday, but it's nothing in the grand scheme of things.

I've noticed that my appetite is shrinking too - I'm not eating as much for my main meals, and snacking a bit less too - but not leaving myself hungry (I can't live like that!).

I think I've decided I my goal weight will be 73kg. Random number right? It's a kg below the top of my HWR, and it would signal 40kgs loss since late 2014. It's a long way in the future, as I have only lost 21kg of that 40 (did I just say ONLY 21kgs??), but at the moment I feel confident I can get there.

But to break it down I have mini goals along the way - every 5kgs are the main ones, but also each decade,  pre-pregnancy weight (86), and surpassing my lowest ever (78). Mini goals are so important!!

My JFJ No Go List:

Chippies

Chocolate

Ice Cream

Lollies

McDonald's

KFC

Burger King

Takeaway Fish & Chips

Takeaway Pizza

I am going to do daily food diaries on here to keep me accountable for JFJ,so here's how day 8 went:

Breakfast: Porridge with a bit of milk on top

Morning Tea: Raspberry Slice

Lunch: Chicken Salad Sandwich

Afternoon Tea: Nuts, Fruit Stick, SMALL piece of cake

Dinner: Steak, oven fries, lettuce & tomato

Have a great week

xx

Next Mini Goal: Goal Weight End of June/15kg lost this year - 1.2kg to go

A good loss this week & JFJ update

Goal Weight: 80kg?

Current Weight: 92.2

Started my journey 6/01/15 - 13.8kg lost in 2015

Happy with a loss of 600gms this week. Might have been slightly better if I didn't go out for dinner last night, but I didn't have dessert, or anything deep fried! I think it was from eating later than we usually do.

Junk Free June is going well - week 1 is done and dusted. Haven't had chocolate for 8 or 9 days now, have ha the odd craving, but seem to be doing ok. Not missing takeaways AT ALL - although I think hubby might be haha! 

Keen to get into the 91's by next WI, and if I push hard I may just get to the 80's by the end of June - but I won't beat myself up if I don't :)

Here's a recap of the last few days:

My JFJ No Go List:

Chippies

Chocolate

Ice Cream

Lollies

McDonald's

KFC

Burger King

Takeaway Fish & Chips

Takeaway Pizza

I am going to do daily food diaries on here to keep me accountable for JFJ, so my eating for Friday, Saturday & Sunday was this:

Friday

Breakfast: Porridge with a bit of milk on top

Morning Tea: Raspberry Slice

Lunch: Chicken Salad Sandwich

Afternoon Tea: Nuts & Muesli Bar

Dinner: Sausage, Scrambled Eggs & Oven Chips

Saturday

Breakfast: Jam on toast x 2

Morning Tea: Nuts & Fruit Stick

Lunch: Spaghetti on Toast

Afternoon Tea: 

Dinner: Bacon & egg Pie & Eclair

Sunday

Breakfast: Jam on Toast x 2

Morning Tea: Cheese Scone

Lunch: Veg & Bacon Subway (2/3 of a 6 inch)

Afternoon Tea: Beef Quesadilla & half a cider

So a mixed bag there, but still sticking to my JFJ rules!

Have a great week

xx

Next Mini Goal: Goal Weight End of June/15kg lost this year - 1.2kg to go

Almost a whole week without chocolate! JFJ Day 4

Goal Weight: 80kg?

Current Weight: 92.8

Started my journey 6/01/15 - 13.2kg lost in 2015

Freakin scales still aren't moving! I've been sooooo good!!

No big blog post today, just an update on JFJ, day 4!

My JFJ No Go List:

Chippies

Chocolate

Ice Cream

Lollies

McDonald's

KFC

Burger King

Takeaway Fish & Chips

Takeaway Pizza

I am going to do daily food diaries on here to keep me accountable for JFJ, so my eating for yesterday was this:

Breakfast: Porridge with a bit of milk on top

Morning Tea: Date Scone & trim Hot Chocolate

Lunch: Chicken Brest Pita Pit

Afternoon Tea: 3 Rice cakes

Dinner: Lean pork steak, mashed potato, carrot, broccoli & cauliflower

Almost a whole week without chocolate (saturday was the last time!). I actually think this is a record for me

Next Mini Goal: Goal Weight End of June/15kg lost this year - 1.8kg to go

June is going to be a loooong month - JFJ Day 3

Goal Weight: 80kg?

Current Weight: 92.8

Started my journey 6/01/15 - 13.2kg lost in 2015

Had a sneaky peek at the scales today - not moving. Hopefully they do before monday!

No big blog post today, just an update on JFJ, day 3!

My JFJ No Go List:

Chippies

Chocolate

Ice Cream

Lollies

McDonald's

KFC

Burger King

Takeaway Fish & Chips

Takeaway Pizza

I am going to do daily food diaries on here to keep me accountable for JFJ, so my eating for yesterday was this:

Breakfast: Porridge with a bit of milk on top

Morning Tea: Waffle with fruit

Lunch: Chicken Salad sandwich

Afternoon Tea: Fruit Stick & 3 Rice cakes

Dinner: Homemade American Hotdog

3 whole days without chocolate!

Next Mini Goal: Goal Weight End of June/15kg lost this year - 1.8kg to go

Junk Free June, Day 2!

Goal Weight: 80kg?

Current Weight: 92.8

Started my journey 6/01/15 - 13.2kg lost in 2015

No big blog post today, just an update on JFJ, day 2!

My JFJ No Go List:

Chippies

Chocolate

Ice Cream

Lollies

McDonald's

KFC

Burger King

Takeaway Fish & Chips

Takeaway Pizza

I am going to do daily food diaries on here to keep me accountable for JFJ, so my eating for yesterday was this:

Breakfast: Porridge with a bit of milk on top

Morning Tea: Tasti Snacking Nuts, 1 Rice Cake

Lunch: Egg Sandwich

Afternoon Tea: Fruit Stick & 2 Rice cakes

Dinner: Chicken, Bacon & Mozzarella Tortellini with Sundried Tomato Cream Sauce & 2 pieces garlic bread

2 whole days without chocolate!

Next Mini Goal: Goal Weight End of June/15kg lost this year - 1.8kg to go

Junk Free June - Day 1

Goal Weight: 80kg?

Current Weight: 92.8

Started my journey 6/01/15 - 13.2kg lost in 2015

A good start to June with a loss of 1.1kg. I did have a tummy bug for 24 hours, so not sure what is actually true. But it had been a week between tummy bug & weigh in. I'm starting to get a bit excited by the prospect of being an 80's girl -less than 3kg to go - time to smash it!

Junk Free June started yesterday! I didn't have the best start, but today is a new day, and I know I can do it.

My JFJ No Go List:

Chippies

Chocolate

Ice Cream

Lollies

McDonald's

KFC

Burger King

Takeaway Fish & Chips

Takeaway Pizza

I am going to do daily food diaries on here to keep me accountable for JFJ, so my eating for yesterday was this:

Breakfast: Toast with Peanut Butter

Lunch: Homemade Pizza and hot chips (oops)

Afternoon Tea: Fruit Stick & Rice cake

Dinner: Leek & Potato Soup, Toast, and Eclair

So one wee slip up with the hot chips, I know I can do better!

A quick look at my mini goals:

Goal Weight End of Feb - 102 (Got it! 101.5)

5kg lost this year - 101 (Got it! 16/3)

5% lost this year - 100.7 (Got it! 16/3)

Under 100kg - (Got it! 16/3)

10kg lost this year - 96 (Got it! 27/4)

10% lost this year - 95.4 (Got it! 11/5)

12 week challenge goal (18/5) - 94.2 (Got it! 94.0 - 18/5)

Goal Weight End of June - 91

15kg lost this year - 91

15% lost this year - 90.1

Under 90kg

Have a great week!

xx

Next Mini Goal: Goal Weight End of June/15kg lost this year - 1.8kg to go